23rd October - Ex Boyfriends!

First photo of Dean and I together as a couple
Check out his bruise from "the fight"!

OMG!

Yes it did happen, I bumped into my ex - again.

Ok brief background for those that dont know, I was with Dennis for nearly 3 years and I was 18 when I broke up with him. I didnt break up with him for Dean but I broke up with him because of Dean. Dean showed me that I deserved better and that there was people out there that thought I was great and would love to love me etc - me not realising he was actually talking about himself!

Ok ok back to the story its not about Dean and I - its about Dennis and I (ugh).

So things were pretty intense with Dennis and I, we were young and very serious. Moved intogether at 17. One problem though - my friends didnt like him - they did at the start but at the end they didnt at all. He was controlling and wouldnt let me have my own life outside of him - at all. My family didnt like how I became a shell of my former self. My work mates didnt like him at all either. Again they started off liking him but didnt like it when he became SO
possessive etc. The final straw came one night when he held me REALLY tight and said that he knows why people in America kill their partners because they are so jealous.....yeah enough said pretty scary eh.

So I broke up with him, didnt cry ANY tears - but he did. Man did he cry. He said everything under the sun to try and make me come back. Everything. Asked me to marry him everything. I stood my ground but decided to give him one last chance. I agreed to go out to dinner with his Mum, Dad and him and to stay the night. I THINK we arranged to go the Saturday night - and so on the Friday I went out for after work drinks with everyone - my first time ever after working there for 2 years. So got home about 7.30pm to find REALLY abusive messages on the phone from him asking where the hell I was etc - I rang him and said that that was the final straw, and that was it all over red rover. (Hopefully the dinner was suppose to be the Saturday night which Im sure it was - otherwise that was bad of me to be home late if everyone was waiting for me to go out for dinner - but Im sure it was the Saturday positive I hope).

Man this is turning out to be long, but I want the whole story done.

So after that, he followed me to work, tried to run me off the road, turned up at work on my lunch breaks all the time (we worked around the corner from each other), waited for me outside work, and then started waiting for me INSIDE work - until one of the big guys there went up to him when I was at lunch and said some words to him - not sure what they were but he never came back lol.

Few weeks later I was on a date with Dean and we were at a club late leaving to go home (I wasnt going home with him just sharing a cab), Dennis saw us and bam it was all on, big fight - Dennis got Dean - but only cause Dean was SO drunk! Haha. So yeah not nice.

Fast forward 7 years - 2 months ago a car pulled out in front of me - yep it was him. He waved - me scared. Fast forward to a month ago - walked into the chemist he walked out - bump - literally. Looked up and it was him. Shit. BUT I have to be fair, he was really nice really really nice - and even apologised for everything! He also told me he developed a condition after we broke up that he couldnt go outside - it lasted 2 years! But it was nice to see him and he even gave me a hug! Anyway few weeks later I saw his Mum and Nanna down the main street was also nice to see them and I told them it was nice to see Dennis a few weeks ago and they said he said the same thing.

Since then Jaz has also bumped into him and so has my brother.

Ok so that brings us to last night - yes I bumped into him AGAIN. How can it be that you dont see someone for 7 years and them bump into them 3 times in a couple of months! Anyway he had a girl with him (kind of looked like me)?! We walked out of the shop and he was across from us - then he kept on walking - yep he snobbed me! Hahaha.

So there goes a long post for you - thats if your still reading!

Netball last night was great, we lost and I was SO buggered bit sore today!

Eating went REALLY well yesterday Im really proud of myself!

22nd October - So tired!

The lamp I want to buy - I think!

I had the WORST nights sleep ever last night, kept waking up all night after I finally managed to go to sleep! Im thinking its because we had nachoes for tea? I know so bad, but they were nice! And I used the rest of the mince to make a mince vegie pasta bake for Dean for tea tonight since Ive got netball.

Duffy was so cute last night, slept in between us under the covers with her head on the pillow! WTF is she a human or what?!

But I really do think that is why I had a terrible nights sleep - that bad food!

Didnt do ANY exercise at all yesterday, so I better hurry up and do some to fit in my goal eh!

Loving that I now have readers and that I have people to read as well! Its awesome, will totally help me stay on track!

Feeling bit sick this morning - wonder if its from the nachoes?! Silly nachoes!

I really cant be bothered going to netball tonight - how bad is that?! I LOVE netball! Im just feeling a bit blah - this is when I really need to dig deep and keep going and start to feel good again rather than go the wrong way and end up feeling worse!

Im thinking about buying this lamp - what do you think of it? Its $200 plus postage.

21st November - Hump day!

So quick question for you all before I go on to do my proper page for today - Do you think its best if I write in the following day what happened the day before? So today write Tuesdays blog, or today (Wednesday) write about yesterday and this morning type thing?

Am I making sense?

20th October - Im back

Very deceiving photo cause its looking down on us so you cant see my triple chins!

After a LONG time off the band wagon Im back on it - finally.

Why oh why do I give up after Ive done so well?! I seriousy dont know. I start to get comments and rather than letting it motivate me more I give up. Stupid really.

But doesnt matter because Im now back on track!

Todays weigh in wasnt great - but Im glad I did it.

Im now at 86.

So my goals for this week are by next Monday 3 x 40 min walks, 1 step class and 1 game of netball - so I'll focus on that this week and think of a reward for myself if I manage to do it - which of course I will! Power of positive thinking remember!

Ps/ I need to set some new rewards dont I!

26th August - Home time!

Can you believe I go home tonight - I cant its been just so full on and so quick!

So to make the most of today we got up and Kirst dropped the kids off to school and came back and got me - which I was most greatful for! I was SO tired!

Got to Carrindale about 9.10am and didnt have to leave until 2pm - perfect.

So today is the day I probably went to far in the shopping scale of things...

Went to Myer tried on a few nice things there and fell in love with a nice dressy top that is made for petites - ok I know your thinking but Dal your SO not petite! Haha, its more petite - meaning short people. So this top is really nice but it was exie at $80 so hopefully I wear it lol. I got another black casual top from there too really like it. Then went onto Target and got Dean some lollies and I found another top there - but decided against it, because I did have one similar - so was quite proud of myself! Went and had pedicures they were devine, I shouted Kirst hers for everything she has done for me :)

Got some more Britney Spears perfume cause I had run out - now I didnt buy it because it was Britney I brought it originally because it smelt quite nice but I LOVED the pink bottle, now I just really love it for summer because its such a sweet candy type smell, I wont buy it again though I do that fall in love with one buy it again and then move on lol.

Still hadnt really found anything to give to Dean until I walked into a shop that finally sold kombis, I hit the jackpot. I got him a kombi plaque, coffee mug, beer cooler thing and a miniture kombi van that has a keyring on it - and a clock perfect! I also got myself there a D keyring that is all blingy - I LOVE it.

So thank god I finally found something for him, because I was beginning to get a wee bit over shopping (I know did I just say that), so had some lunch had a little more look around (I think that is all that I brought today) and then we walked past Neopleon counter - so I decided to get the brush for the powder - oh crap I forgot to say that I had brought that yesterday oops, its like this powder that goes over your makeup thats called camera finish, and you really need the brush to go with it as I discovered when I got home, so brought the brush for $55 as you do (ouch) and then decided that incase you couldnt get Neopleon at home - I would get the blusher now too, because it was really nice. So I got that too at $50 - ok that was the final purchase that pushed me over the limit, I suddenly felt sick, I really had spent a lot in 3 days, not including the week before I even got to Oz how much I had spent. Eeeeek, dont really want to think about it, its only money right?!

Kirst dropped me off at the airport about 2pm because that way she wouldnt get stuck in traffic going back to get the kids, which was a good call. So I just chilled out at the airport for a couple of hours before I had to check in, wasnt to sad saying bye this time because it was like see you in a few months! Lol. Next time will be sad though.

Now I dont know if this is karma or what but my flight home was terrible, horrible even. First we were delayed by 30 minutes which wasnt TO bad, I had an exit seat which was awesome ment I had heaps of room which was great - but then the guy sitting next to me came and sat down and he stunk. He really stunk bad. Ugh. And he was busy writting away a letter to his Mum about why he didnt like her - and he proceeded to tell me everything. Hmm. Between his lisp and his bad BO - things where not looking good for me! I pretended to sleep for a while which was good but the only way I could really get away from his smell was to put my face on the fold out tray thingy and face the other way - so I did. And I did actually get some sleep! Would have looked bloody funny for those walking past though hahaha oh well. So the flight was going ok until 1/2 an hour before we were due to land. Then it got rough really really rough and sooooo bumpy. They told us we were going to experience some turbulance - but hell that was turbulance and a half! Was very scary. I just kept thinking that thank god Dean wasnt with me because he would have HATED it.

Finally arrived and I was straight on the mission to get through customs first and out that door and I was! Was great, I text Dean when we landed and by the time I got my bag and went through he had just pulled up - perfect timing. Was so so nice to see him.

Im home and it feels great x

25th August - Pink!!!

Ignore my hair I had to tie it up because I knew it would be hot there!

So today was the best day ever!

Started the day early by going to a Dayspa with Kirst. She had a facial while I had my hair cut off - and I mean cut off!

What an amazing place though, when I got my hair washed they spent AGES relaxing my head and you sit in these amazing leather seats it was so cool. Very cool.

So had the big cut really loved it, then she was doing the fringe bit and I said to go a bit shorter cause I wasnt happy with the way it was sitting, bit of a mistake as now I dont know if I like the fringe bit - oh well it wont be this short for long! They then used GHD to put some loose curls in it. I shouldnt have done that part because it was $15 Australian and it looked ok but I liked it better before she did them and they didnt really last long but oh well was nice to just be pampered!

Then after my hair cut and Kirsts facial she then got her hair blow dried straight man it looked nice! We then got complimentry makeup done. How cool is that! It is very simple just foundation, mascarra and lips basically - but so nice to walk out of there feeling great! The makeup was Neopleon or something and yes I was sold. I brought the foundation, the pre foundation stuff that makes your foundation last longer (ok maybe went a bit over the top buying that but hey I was on holiday) and the lip gloss. Was going to get the blusher - but felt Id spent quite a bit already...

So out of there feeling amazing! Went down and had lunch at a place called Sushi train - what a wicked cool idea it is, you sit up at the table thing and then these plates come past you with different sushi on them and you choose what you want so you take the plate and all the plates are different colours so at the end they work out how much to pay. The first one I grabbed wasnt that nice, but it came better - I think it was just getting use to the different flavoured sushi if that makes sense - like their rice tasted way different than ours? I think Kirst thought I was being fussy - but it did taste different and once I got use to it it was good! Then the train was coming around and I saw strawberries that were drizzeled in chocolate - so had to have one of those! So nice. So that was great fun!

Next Kirst went and picked Soph up from School and took her to ballet lessons, over the road from Ballet is a mall - so I went in there while Kirst went to ballet with Soph. What a great trip that was for me - I brought a top from Katies I know an old school shop but it was a singlet (that Im wearing in the photo) and was really nice on so I got it, then went to Crossroads - I LOVE that shop and I brought 5 tops yes 5. But they are all so nice! And as you know I struggle to find tops because of my tummy - but I loved them all so got them all! They are all kind of the same style with the thick band at the bottom and then a little puffy - some are quite casual and some bit more dressy, nothing really really dressy though. I'll take some photos soon - promise! I also got a plain black tshirt top with a thick waistband from Kmart was only $15 so that was a score too! Crossroads joined me up as a VIP - and I saved 10% off everything as you do lol.

Concert time - wow wow wow wow and wow. Firstly the venue holy crap, what a massive massive massive place. The traffic was insane and the people were even insaner! There was quite a few lesbians there too which was crazy! We had standing tickets, so got some tea at the venue and then went in just as Evermore where singing there last song, we got quite close about 5 rows from the front. The atmostphere was amazing and Pink hadnt even come out yet!

So we waited about 30 minutes and out she came, omg she is beautiful absolutly utterly beautiful. I had no idea that in real life she was that amazingly beautiful - honestly she is beautiful.

Now her show - that is the one word to describe it her show - was out of this world. She came out and did 4 of her BIG hits straight off, I couldnt believe it 4 in a row! Was amazing. She did acrobats and all sorts, was truly amazing. I think even if you didnt like her music you would still have a great time because it is a show and man does she put on a great show. The place was pumping - heard heaps of people say cant wait for Britney now etc - and I was thinking me to! We are sitting at Britney - so will be interesting to see the venue in a different light. I thought Britney would have been heaps better than Pink - but now after seeing Pink it will be a big call for Britney to top that!

Sooooooo tired, but so worth it - off for a HUGE sleep!

Ps/ Just trying to send from my phone a picture of my hair after I had it done.

24th August - Its here! No more sleeps!

Far out Im SO tired, what a huge huge day.

Ok so had to be at the airport at 5am - ouch. Dean droped me off and it was sooooooo sweet - he cried! It was so sweet. Awww. Very special. So adorable!

So he dropped me off and had to go straight to work which was a shame, but I went in and checked in and then went and put on some makeup, freshened myself up a bit had a look through duty free and then it was time to board! Went so quickly which was good.

So arrived in at Aussie at 9am, we went straight to DFO - Direct factory outlets. Now before I left Dean told me to "go hard" and if I want something get it. Ok so walked around for ages couldnt really find anything - until I found a guess bag that I LOVED - at $300 ouch. So thought about it for 2 seconds and my cousin said well you certainly would be "going hard" if you got that! But I just couldnt do it, so put it down and moved on. Left DFO with only one gift for Deans sister this really cool Roxy toliet bag thing. Then went to Carrindale Mall. OMG this mall is seriously the biggest mall ever. Its amazing. Ive been to it quite a few times and just love it. So first stop was Target there - I love love love Target. I brought hmm 3 tops (I think) and a few pairs of undies - I love these Bond undies at the moment with the thick waistband so so so comphy. Ive got about 7 pairs from here, but over in Aussie they had WAY cooler colours so brought them - as you do.

Had a further look around the mall and then went to go get the kids from School - we stopped off at Cold Rock on the way home omg coldrock is just so nice sooooo yummy. Have you guys ever had it?

Went home and just chilled out for a bit, Kirstens house is so nice, it was just so cool to hang out there and relax! Had some nice cocktails and had an early night. A couple of Kirsts friends came over they were so lovely, but I just couldnt stay up for long was knackered!

Ready for a big full on day tomorrow!

23rd August - Home time briefly

How cute is she?!

We flew home at 2pm, it was nice to be back and to see Duffy - my friend Lisa was calling in every day to check on her - the wee ratbag brought home 2 birds in 2 days can you believe it! Man she loved the attention though when we got home!

Died my hair tonight, its dark - really dark! Its called Bitter sweet chocolate but I think its a bit dark oh well it will fade right?!

One more sleep to go!

22nd August - Cirque du Soleil oh and AF

Wow is all I can say wow wow wow and wow. What a show! Amazing! If it ever comes again I highly suggest you go - it was amazing, absolutly amazing!

Dean loved it to, he was amazed by the juggler - well all of it but especially the juggler. I was especially amazed by the trampolinists. Wow. Wow wow and wow.

So we arrived in at Auckland at 8am, had breakfast at the airport - man Auckland airport is way better for chilling out at than Christchurch - I couldnt believe there was a McDonalds there! At Christchurch all you can get is like a muffin for $10 - well not that bad but you know what I mean lol. We then got picked up at 9am from the airport by the car rental company - man it was cheap $30 a day for a nice wee car! We drove straight to Sylvia Park well via all these other places because we got lost! I cant get over Auckland traffic its nuts! Dean had a sore eye was all blood shot, so we went to the chemist, they sent us to OPSM - and turns out hes got something wrong there and has to go to a surgen! Dean does NOT do doctors or hospitals lol so he is freaking out and trying to get out of it - hes a little ratbag! So watch this space.

Just looked around Sylvia Park for a while, wasnt to busy that time of morning which was great! Didnt buy anything so was quite proud of myself! Neither did Dean! We went onto Dressmart and found a gift for a guy at Deans work thats just had a wee baby girl - we got them some Nike socks they were SO cool! We then just went to the hotel and chilled out to get ready for the Circus, which was amazing! Went to the Casino after the Circus too which was fun.

So tired though, getting up at 5am to catch a plane is NOT good!

21st August - AF Arrived

Stupid stupid mean AF arrived the day before we go to Auckland! Grrr. Oh well at least I wont have it full on in Aussie I guess!

What a terrible sleep I had I think it was because I was so excited about going to Auckland tomorrow!

I had a weigh in today - 83.2kgs I cant believe it that is just so not cool.

BUT Im going to be back onto it when Im home!

20th August - Starting to feel better slowly..

Little ratbag things the clean washing is a nice place to sit!

Im FINALLY starting to feel a bit better, might be because of the OD I'm doing on the vitaman C tablets! Lol.

BUT AF is on her way. Stupid bitch! Haha. Oh well.

Played netball last night, had a good game we played a friends team they are the grade above us - I think we might have even won! Whooho. Was my last training for the year anyway because this weeks our final game and Im in Auckland and there is NO CHANCE that we are in the semis lol.

Hurt my neck though so dont know whats up with that!

2 sleeps to go till Auckland! 4 sleeps till Oz! Its coming around SO fast! And OMG Mammamias not far away either now whooho!

So pleased Im starting to feel better thanks guys, but still far from right - just HOPE Im better by Saturday! Wonder if Im feeling better as well because I finally managed to do some exercise last night?

OMG now Duffy - the little Duffy. Shes such a hardcase - but guess what happened last night, I got home from work went into the toilet and thought hmm there is lots of water around the toilet seat thats weird, looked on the ground and there was water for MILES, looked in the toilet bowel and there was pretty much no water in there! She fell down the toilet! Didnt really surprise me because shes such a crazy wee thing! Also with the washing basket thing, she goes and sits in there and then when you try and get her out she WONT move. Even if I pick up the basket she doesnt move, she just sits there when I walk around with it!

19th August - Getting close

I cant believe that in 3 sleeps time I'll be in Auckland and then in 5 sleeps I'll be in Oz! Crazy how fast its gone.

We have just booked tickets for Circus Solay or whatever its called, for Auckland - Im SO excited! And we just booked Pearl Jam too - what a full on year eh!

I had to go get a warrant on my car - needed 4 new tyres! OMG! Anyway got heaps of quotes and the one that worked out WAY cheaper was a place called Affordable Tyres - would highly reccomend them.

So in my shopping trip the other day I brought a couple of scarfs as Im trying to add colour colour colour, so heres the one I'm wearing today - but look at me I look TERRIBLE! All bloated and feeling ugh :(

BUT my eatings good! When will I start to feel good again?

18th August - Still sick

Can you believe that Im STILL sick?! Its not fair! Im taking vitamen C is there anything else I should be taking?

These are some of the books I got from the Library - thanks for your list E, I had already been to the Library before I got your reply, but I've taken a note of them to get them out next time! I must say it did feel weird being at the library lol, havent been there in YEARS!

Least my eatings back on track, but I just feel so UGH :(

17th August - Update a week to go!

A week to go and Im in Aussie! Hot 29 degrees Aussie! Man I hope Im better by then!

Just went and brought some Vitamen C to help me get rid of this damn flu!

I need to get some books from the library - what would you suggest good reading for me?

17th August - Sorry girls

So sorry that Ive let the team down my "reading public" Lol. Thanks E for your email - your a gem.

And E is right I do need to fess up, do need to put it out there how Im doing/feeling etc - so that I can get back on track.

And that is what Im doing.

Im back on track and Im not letting this never ending flu stop me. I cant do the real hard out exercise - but I can do the situps and I will. Ive got to do this.

Im back up to 83.2 and that is disgracefull as a week ago I was 81.

But thats ok whats done is done and as long as Im doing better now.

So - question I obviously wont be able to get to the 70's so that I can buy my Wii which my god I want to buy! But do you think I should make a new target for the Wii. Ie eat REALLY healthy for the next 7 days straight and I can get it? Or leave it to the 70's still? Help!

16th August - Shopping

Man have I done some shopping this last week. And today was no exception, went for a manicure with Dean's Aunty this morning and man it was nice! And we continued on and I brought some really nice clothes, scarves, necklaces, bras etc! Was all stuff I needed. Was nice to get things in a smaller size!

Although, if I keep up the no exercising and bad eating I wont be in the smaller size!

How do I do this, it sux being sick I dont feel like exercising at all :(

Was suppose to be going out for tea tonight with a few of the netball girls, but Im feeling so crap with this flu that Ive had to give it a miss :(

15th August - Inlaws up

Jill and Wayne are up today and cooked a really nice roast for tea, was SO nice!

Im still feeling crap my tooth is SO sore!

Lost netball today - again. My flu is getting worse too, it sux! Especially bad in the morning and at night.

I feel depressed this whole thing sux!

14th August - Weigh in day

Feeling terrible absolutly terrible. I thought I had put on 1.2kgs - but it was 2.2kgs can you believe it?!

I feel terrible have bad tooth ache going to get it sorted today.

Had such a bad bad bad week, not just food wise, but work wise everything. It was bad. Terrible bad. You know those weeks?

Weightloss chart updated:
12th June - 90kgs
19th June - 87.8kgs - Loss 2.2kgs - Total loss 2.2kgs
26th June - 86.3kgs - Loss 1.5kgs - Total loss 3.7kgs
3rd July - 84.6kgs - Loss 1.7kgs - Total loss 5.4kgs
10th July - 83.9kgs - Loss .700gms - Total loss 6.1kgs
17th July - 83.7kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.3kgs
24th July - 83.5kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.5kgs
31st July - 81.4kgs - Loss 2.1kgs - Total loss 8.6kgs
7th August - 81kgs - Loss .400gms - Total loss 9kgs
14th August 83.2kgs - GAIN 2.2kgs - Total loss 6.8kgs

6.8 sounds terrible compared to 9! I feel terrible! I honestly look like Im pregnant again, Im so bloated in my tummy :(

11th August - Starting afresh TODAY

Ignore the awful carpet in there!

Ok so I brought new scales and got on them today to see the damage - holy crap 800gms. Shit. Ok. Ok. Breath. Deal with it and move on.

Ok. Guess postives out of it is - at least it wasnt more?!

Ok lets be serious. Im ready for this - Ive got to lose 2.1kgs in 1.5 weeks plus next week is the week before AF. So I know Im pretty much pushing shit uphill! BUT I want to feel GREAT for when I go to Aussie so Im going to give it my best shot thats for sure.

I still feel like absolut crap, my skins gone bad and MAN I am so so tired. So tired. My eyes are all drainy too. Man its hard to believe that 3-4 days bad food would do this to you eh! But it has, so I need to pickup and move on.

Anyway, back in on it today in full force - Im guessing its going to take a few days of me being 100% good to start feeling better again? What do you think? Doesnt help that in the mornings I feel pretty crap sore throat etc. Its happened the last 2 mornings. Early night for me thats for sure!

Moving on from weight stuff, heres my new shoe rack and some of my new shoes! Im REALLY loving a couple of pairs, that are dressy but have a smallish heel - which was exactly what I wanted yah.

Right onwards and upwards right?

10th August - I feel crap

I feel absolut crap. Absolutly utterly crap.

So tired and my skin is ugh and I just cant be bothered doing anything.

Help. I need a kick up the butt NOW.

ETA - I had lollies at lunchtime...got to be honest.

9th August - I need a kick up the bum

My scales have broke. My stupid Warehouse scales. Stupid things, they had a year warranty - but do you think I can find my receipt?! Grrr. And because of this I have pretty much given up!

Im thinking about buying some Weight Watcher scales - does anyone know if they are any good? I know Farmers sells them for good prices when they are on sale. But I dont know if I can wait that long!

Ok so today certainly has NOT been a good eating day. Dean had these really nice chocolate bars from a client - and I ended up having 2. Yes 2.

Then later on in the day we went to Mcdonalds with the family for Gabe's birthday - not only did I have a large combo - but I also had an icecream sundee! I have pretty much given up!

HELP!!!

8th August - Great day

So the movies last night were awesome! Saw the Proposal LOVED it! What a great movie. And man Ryan Reynolds is SO hot! And he always plays the nice guys in movies - which makes you fall for him even more! Lol.

Played netball today and lost - it was the first time Ive been really pissed off after a game and said it. I walked off the court and said - Im fucked off. Lol all the girls looked at me with horror in their eyes!

Dean and I went to the Lonestar tonight was SO nice! But pretty bad for me obviously! But damn Dixie chicken is SO nice!

Had a bit of a spend up today! Brought a pair of jeans, long cardi, black dressy top, white casual top, bag, 5 pairs of shoes - yes 5!!! But all desperately needed. I'll take some photos for you guys later.

7th August - Weigh in day!

Yah I lost! BUT I didnt do as well as I had hopped. Oh well - cant really expect TO much because I didnt do a lot of exercise this week, just 1/2 hour training Monday, netball practice Wednesday and a game last night - thats about it really! So I need to pull finger.

So guttered that I didnt quite get into the 80's! So close though - next week I will for sure!

Sooo that is a total of 9kgs in 8 weeks! Im rapt. BUT I havent really been having many comments? Which is pissing me off! Lol. I had one from Mum, Dad and Dean the other day and Deans Mum and Jen - and one from someone that works in the main office - so they are all people that didnt know I was doing it which is great - but no one else. I thought with 9kgs I would have had more? I dont know, its probably as Ive said before because my weight is SO up and down over the years?

Weightloss chart updated:
12th June - 90kgs

19th June - 87.8kgs - Loss 2.2kgs - Total loss 2.2kgs

26th June - 86.3kgs - Loss 1.5kgs - Total loss 3.7kgs
3rd July - 84.6kgs - Loss 1.7kgs - Total loss 5.4kgs

10th July - 83.9kgs - Loss .700gms - Total loss 6.1kgs
17th July - 83.7kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.3kgs

24th July - 83.5kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.5kgs
31st July - 81.4kgs - Loss 2.1kgs - Total loss 8.6kgs

7th August - 81kgs - Loss .400gms - Total loss 9kgs

5th August - My nephews are getting OLD!

Can you believe my original baby nephew is now 9?! And my new baby nephew is 4! WTF! Hes at school next year! Crazy eh.

Feeling ok, just bit down really about the scales yesterday! And feeling SO tired, think its to do with the pizza and stuff from the other day, just feeling bloated and not as good as I have been.

I was naughty today and had chocolate licorice! Not a lot but enough to make me kind of wish I didnt have it. Well sort of - I did enjoy it ;)

Feel like I havent been working as hard this week, I havent been doing my fitness routine 5 x a day for the last 2 days, so I need to get back into it. I was quite sore so just stopped - silly!

Had an ok training last night, didnt really have a HUGE sweat up though which was a shame.

Love Dean hes being such a sweetie, really loving life at the moment, just need to lose a bit more - I REALLY want to get to my goal for Aussie! NEARLY there only 1.5kgs to go - but now only 2 weeks eek.

4th August - Help please

Hi guys,

I need help - I keep getting on the scales EVERY day! I know its naughty! But I cant stop it lol.

And today I got on and Im EXACTLY the same as I was on Friday!!! ARGH.

Had a good day today and a nice night, rather relaxing which is good.

Im still pretty sore, so took it easier today with the exercises.

Need to get back into it tomorrow though!

3rd August - 3 Weeks today!

Taken Friday night

3 weeks to go today - can you believe it! Whoooho! Man its coming around fast isnt it?!

Man this working out has really got me sore. But its for a good cause right?!

Im really happy with how my skin is at the moment! Its finally coming right yah!

Brooke couldnt meet me today, but I went down and had a run around today it was good. Was 30 minutes so better than nothing I guess eh?

Feeling bit crappy because of the pizza etc, but oh well back onto it!

Thinking about getting Dean Pearl Jam tickets for his birthday, not to sure hmm. Any suggestions?

Did my burpies, starjumps, situps 5 x a day again today - I am making sure I do it EVERY weekday. Also did 150 sit ups today yah go me!

2nd August - Oamaru

Wee ratbag, gets up on the clothes horse & this is how we find her!

So we left Oamaru about lunchtime, totally clucked up both of us lol. It was a quick there and back trip but was good to see everyone, especially the kids.

I missed Duffy SO much and was so worried about her! But she was fine, very cuddly but totally fine!

Didnt do a lot when we got home, just watched America's funniest home videos - man I LOVE that programme and mucked around the house, watched Island Wars - god that programme is funny! I know Laurel (Miss NZ) she was in one of our bands, so its always funny watching someone you know! See the Kiwis get into a bit of a fight with the Aussies! It was classic. I cant stand that Aussie comedian, I would seriously punch her in the face. She does my head in.

We ordered pizza for tea - naughty I know, but I only had one peice, wee hand full of chips and a peice of garlic bread so thats ok, was my treat! Normally I would have had about 3 peices HEAPS of chips, and a couple of bits of bread, so Im rapt.

Early night and a great day had by all!

1st August - We won!

This is wee Riley and Uncle Dean taken at Christmas time

We won! We actually won our game! Can you believe it?! Lol.

We played the top of the table and won our first game yah so rapt. Everyone played SO well! And I really felt the training that Brooke and I have been doing really paid off, I could honestly feel the difference. Exciting!

Mum, Dean and Jaz came up and watched, so it was awesome them all being there although I try and block out whos on the sideline as I just try and focus - you know being professional and all lol.

After netball we rushed home had a shower and went down to Oamaru for the night to see Deans Mum, brother, sister, nephews etc. My god the kids were gorgeous! They have grown up so much! Riely the wee one whos now 1.5 was adorable, he walks around telling little wee stories its so cute! Dean and I both just couldnt get enough of him! Kept on going up to him and stealing cuddles and kisses off him hehe. Made us both clucky thats for sure!

Sooooooo..... thinking is it really worth holding off for Britney?!

Jen (Dean's brothers girlfriend) is pregnant due 30th October, she is now looking pregnant and looks really good! I cant wait to meet the wee baby and find out if its another boy (will be their 3rd) or a wee girl. Im kind of hoping for a wee boy for them because it would be nice for the boys on the farm type thing. But then a girl would be nice for them too! I SO want a girl.

Was pleased with my eating had a subway wrap for lunch on Saturday (well about 3pm) on our way down and then had tea at Dean's Mums but only really had vegies and meat as Deans Mum is SUCH a good cook but I know the taste comes from using lots of olive oil too, so I didnt want to have a lot.

Feeling good!

31st July - Weigh In Day

Im rapt that is a huge weightloss - but Im naughty and a little dissapointed because I thought it might have been a bit more, I know that is terrible its just that the first week I lost 2.7kgs and didnt do a lot of exercise and didnt stick to it 100% - well this week I have done an UNBELIVABLE amount of exercise like hard out exercise and stuck with the good food ALL week, but I shouldnt complain because 2.1 is still a massive loss!

West out for tea tonight for a friends birthday, shes hitting 25 and a little worried about it - lol Im telling her not to worry - Im 26 this year and that to me feels old because I cant say early 20's anymore! Lol. Anyway theres 5 of us going out for tea and its 3 of the other girls that are going to Aussie so that should be good to see how it all goes. We wont really talk about it though because it wont be fair on Shanelle as shes the only one going tonight thats not going. So update on the night - there was the 3 of us that was all lol. And Shanelle came later so yeah, never mind was still fun! Liv, Choni and I talked about Aussie for a bit when it was just us 3 so that worked out good. I had nachoes - but only the snack size - and I didnt even eat them all! So I was proud. Had a cocktail though - oh well. Felt good at the time, but man later on I could tell Id eaten crap food!

Weightloss chart updated:

12th June - 90kgs
19th June - 87.8kgs - Loss 2.2kgs - Total loss 2.2kgs
26th June - 86.3kgs - Loss 1.5kgs - Total loss 3.7kgs

3rd July - 84.6kgs - Loss 1.7kgs - Total loss 5.4kgs
10th July - 83.9kgs - Loss .700gms - Total loss 6.1kgs

17th July - 83.7kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.3kgs
24th July - 83.5kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.5kgs

31st July - 81.4kgs - Loss 2.1kgs - Total loss 8.6kgs

30th July - Im buggered

Excuse the face in the 3rd one lol a bird had just flew over me!

I am absolutly buggered! But so excited about weigh in day tomorrow because Ive been SO good!

Had a great game of indoor netball tonight, was getting pushed around HEAPS, until the second half where I was like stuff this and fought back type thing and I got the better of her haha. We won by 5 in the end whoop whoop.

So I want something cool and funky to wear on the plane to Australia, my cool funky hip cousin (hi Kirst, who I'll show this blog to when Im over there) It needs to be something warm leaving Christchurch obviously at 5am it will be COLD! But warm enough that I can take the jacket/top whatever off when I get there. Hmmm ideas?

Photos are from when Dean and I were in Sydney last year in November, I think Im pretty much at the same weight now as then. So going off the photos of what I took last week, do you think Im about the same, or bit bigger now? Or?

29th July - Skin

Left taken few weeks ago, right taken today - see a difference?

I think my skin is actually starting to really improve yah! I think that the new cream I am using is really helping, you know that one that has been advertised HEAPS in the magazines? Aveno or something? Well Im using that moisteriser and I swear its working.

Turned up to training last night ready for a full on fitness training for 30 minutes then a game - well we had 4 people turn up great. We have 9 in our team and we had 4. One is in Ireland though so thats ok, one had a torn muscle so guess we can forgive her lol, one has an injury from last week but could have played, she turned up late, but the coach didnt want her to risk playing and not be available for Saturday and one text an hour before we started saying that she couldnt get to training tonight because her Mums sick - great. Oh and one was going to be 30 minutes late because she was working.

Anyway was an ok game with 4 people lol - well in the end we had 5 because we got a ring in and shes playing for us Saturday too.

I did my 15 burpies, 30 star jumps and 30 situps x 5 yesterday again - Ive done it every week day since last Thursday - Im so proud of myself! And also last night I did my 100 situps on top of all that.

Feeling REALLY good! YAH!

28th July - Day from hell

I am SO over my job today. Well not my job but just a couple of bands, man do people have no loyalty or what?! Arrrrrgghhh just really angry and over some bands - more dissapointed I guess.

Anyway moving on to brighter and better things!

Did MORE fitness training tonight and shuttle runs. But Brooke and I were so buggered, I think we might be over doing it a bit. We have decided to only do it Monday and Fridays now, because that way we will do it Monday, have netball training Wednesday and then again on Friday.

So my fitness training now is going to go like this:
Monday - Fitness with Brooke shuttle runs etc
Tuesday - Rest day (Will still do 15 Burpies, 30 sit ups, 30 star jumps 5 x a day)
Wednesday - Netball training
Thursday - Netball
Friday - Fitness with Brooke shuttle runs etc
Saturday - Netball
Sunday - Rest day (Will still do 15 Burpies, 30 sit ups, 30 star jumps 5 x a day)

Soooo how does that look?

Did my 200 situps today again! I actually think Im starting to see a difference in my tummy!

Dean wants me to go with him to Oamaru after netball this week, but Im a little worried about leaving Duffy on her own, shes so dependant on us and sleeps IN my bed with us and gets up when Dean goes to work then waits for me in the lounge, when I get up and go in there she does this happy meow type thing! Its so cute. But yeah she is only nearly 5 months old and been with us nearly 2 months - what do you think? I would obviously leave plenty of food etc for her - but I dont know Im worried and dont want to do it. Tys was ok because he was older and even though he loved us heaps etc, Duffy is a lot younger and a lot more affectionate etc. Hmm. Dean thinks Im using it as an excuse not to go - but thats not the case at all! What do you guys think.

27th July - 4 weeks to go

Exactly 4 weeks to go today - and Im so excited. Its starting to hit home now!

Its funny because the day before I go to Aussie Dean and I are in Auckland for the weekend - I keep forgetting because Im so excited about going to Aussie - Im more excited about getting my Wii than going to Pink! Haha.

Brooke (hi hun) and I went down and did MORE shuttle runs, fitness training etc tonight. We did another hour and man was I buggered!

Starting to feel good now though!

26th July - Nothing day

Just got emailed this - so tempted!

What did I do today really?! Well Mum and Dad came around for brunch and we watched the All Blacks.

That was seriously all I did for today - I went and got groceries and did my sit ups but that was about it! Lol.

Watched the final of the netball was a good game, I thought the Vixons would have won they have been in outstanding form.

Did another 200 situps today! 100 in the morning and then 100 at night.

Was good food wise so Im feeling confident for Fridays weigh in!

25th July - AF arrived

Man how curly is my hair getting!

OMG AF arrived this morning at 5am and man it was painful, I woke up in agony had a shower and nurofen and that seemed to help a bit, so went back and had a snuggle in bed with Duffy for a couple of hours (couldnt snuggle into Dean, Duffy wasnt having a bar of it little monkey).

We lost netball again - Lol what the heck is going on?!

Oh well it was a good game though, we were down by 10 going into the last quarter and with just over 2 minutes to go we were within 3 but then lost by 6 damn it! I wont go on - dont want to bore E lol.

We went to one of Dean's clients mid winter Christmas function tonight, it was so nice of them to ask us! It was a country themed night had a DJ and hay bales there etc was good fun. It was so funny they had these games that we had to do - egg and spoon race, three legered race and a chair driving race - man it was funny. You went into groups of 6 and then paired off, Dean and I were together and man we sucked lost every game hahaha. The chair one was the funniest, one person was the pusher and one was on the chair and you started at the start line and had to go up and down the isles then you stopped and had to swap places race out to this cone and then come back to the start and Dean had such a good head start on everyone - but I totally stuffed it up when I was pushing him lol I took the cone to short and then went way wide was not good haha. But man it was hard doing it in jeans that were falling down AND high heels! Was a good night. They had a spit roast for tea too which was yummy.

All in all a good day!

Had a really good day eating wise today so Im proud of myself!

24th July - 4.3kg comparison shots

Notice any difference? I do! YAH!

So there is 4.3kgs between these 2 photos and 5 weeks (imagine what it could have been if I had of actually stuck to the plan for the last 3 weeks)!

Now I have decided to change weigh in day to a Monday - because I am going on a Monday so I thought maybe it would be better. SO I have 4.5 weeks - and 5.5kgs to go! I think though that my goal will be to get into 78 "something" I am still aiming for 78 though!

I WANT THAT WII!!!

24th July - Weigh in day!

Ok so a loss is a loss but I am dissapointed - with myself.

I have done bloody well Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday but not the other days. So I only had a 200gm loss - I know a loss is a loss but Im still angry with myself - makes for a REALLY next couple of weeks!

Yesterday was awesome, after work I met Brooke at the netball courts and we got straight into it. We did exactly what we did at training on Wednesday 3 x suicuide runs. For those that dont know what they are you start at the base line of the court run to the first line, back to the base, then to the second line then back to base, then to the 3rd line (which seems like a mile away) and then back to base. We did that 3 times overall at the start, but the first 2 times through we did 2 burpys (do you know what they are)? at EVERY line. Man it was hard work. So it was 14 burpies per suicide run and we did 2 lots of that so that is 48 and then a straight running suicide run.

Once we did that we did some work with the ball it was great, we really pushed each other hard! The sweat was dripping off us, man it felt awesome! We did that for quite a while, then did ANOTHER set of suicuide runs - but this time it was 4 sets. First set was straight running, then the second set was like the burpys one BUT instead of burpys we did 5 situps at every line, next one was straight running and the finial suicide run was with the burpys - damn hard work! But wow it was awesome, felt so good.

So then I was mad and went and played a game of netball AFTER all of that lol. And got taken out by my BITCH of a partner - she was so rough. Anyway I was knackered but kept going knowing that I wouldnt have a good loss this week (well I have if you count it from Monday because on Monday I weighed and I had gone back up to 74.5)!

My god my body is sore today, my thighs my tummy muscles (didnt realise I had them) my arms, my bum you name it it is bloody sore - but good sore though!

Weightloss chart updated:
12th June - 90kgs

19th June - 87.8kgs - Loss 2.2kgs - Total loss 2.2kgs

26th June - 86.3kgs - Loss 1.5kgs - Total loss 3.7kgs
3rd July - 84.6kgs - Loss 1.7kgs - Total loss 5.4kgs

10th July - 83.9kgs - Loss .700gms - Total loss 6.1kgs
17th July - 83.7kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.3kgs

24th July - 83.5kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.5kgs

I know I can do this!

23rd July - Thighs are sore!

Man my thighs are sore from last night! But its a good sore!

I just did 17 burpys before at morning tea lol. Im going to try and do another 17 at lunch and then 17 at afternoon tea.

I HAVE to get to 78 by Aussie, and the way I was going this week it wasnt going to happen. So something changed in me on Tuesday and Ive been really good since then.

I just have to do this, I HAVE to.

Netball tonight, but its a sucky 8.45 game. Oh well, least its exercise right?

And Brooke and I are going to do the shuttle runs tonight so that will be good too.

So I hope I have a little loss this week, I know it wont be great since I was slack Friday-Monday! So that is only 3 days I have been good for - that is terrible. I only have 4 weeks to go so I have to pull finger.

22nd July - Netball training

Ugh I think AF is on her way - but thats ok maybe thats why Ive been eating so bad? Lol.

I told Lisa our netball coach that I think we need a rark up - and MAN did she work us last night! It was good though, felt absolutly buggered, felt like I couldnt go on - but I did! Im a little sore today but not too bad. She made us do suicide runs (do you know what I mean by those) and at every line we had to do 2 burpys - omg they are what killed me! My thighs where jelly! Anyway we had to do that through twice and then on the 3rd time through we just ran it no burpys but the last line was a sprint. Man it was hard. Shes going to get us to do it every week now and hopefully it will improve our fitness! Brooke and I are going to go do it tomorrow after work, I want to try and do it 3 times a week, including training so surely that will help?!

I wondering if I should show more people this blog, because I feel like I am getting slack with updating everyday?

Since its only Megs that reads now, oh and Brooke are you there Brooke? I showed her this the other day, but dont know if she saved it. Hi Brookey if your there - now this woman Brooke has done AMAZING with her weightloss - like lost 30kgs or something crazy. Amazing!

21st July - Starting today

So today is the day - Im ready to start again and to start being better with food!

Why oh why do I be so good and then go and stuff it all up?

E are you out there?!

20th July - Tax day

I hate tax day - enough said.

19th July - Great day

Had an awesome day today, we went to Riccarton Mall and had a wee spend up, came home had Lisa round and watched the netball semi - well that kind of sucked because I wish they won but never mind.

Need a HUGE kick up the butt food wise, motivation wise and MONEY wise!

HELP!

18th July - Netball

Well we lost - again. Lol. Why do I always say that?!

Going to Mum and Dad's for tea tonight to watch the rugby dont really have a lot else to report really!

17th July - Weigh in day!

Well I dont really deserve it but I managed to lose 200gms, totally doesnt do it for my 900gm target though does it!

All I can say is thank god I didnt PUT on!

I need to pull finger! Any advice?

Esther - are you still reading?

Weightloss chart updated:
12th June - 90kgs
19th June - 87.8kgs - Loss 2.2kgs - Total loss 2.2kgs
26th June - 86.3kgs - Loss 1.5kgs - Total loss 3.7kgs

3rd July - 84.6kgs - Loss 1.7kgs - Total loss 5.4kgs
10th July - 83.9kgs - Loss .700gms - Total loss 6.1kgs

17th July - 83.7kgs - Loss .200gms - Total loss 6.3kgs

16th August - Dentist

Ugh I have lost a bit of my tooth and had to go get a filling, they ended up doing 2 because there was another small hole beside the one that I lost - ended up costing me $230 all up - ouch.

PLUS I still have a bit more work to be done. I have been putting the other side off for SO long, but I know I have a small hole there too - so I really should just go and bite the bullet and get it done eh?

I brought a TV yesterday for our bedroom it was half price down to $349 its a flatscreen 21 inch and has a built in DVD player and I LOVE it!

Had an awesome game of netball tonight we were up by 1 at half time and then with 5 minutes to go we were down by 4 (I went and asked the scorer what the score was) and all of a sudden it just pushed a button in my head I DID NOT want to lose to this team again and it was all go - and we ended up winning by 2! I was rapt! I wish I played all the time like I did in that last 5 minutes!

15th August - Need a kick up the butt NOW

Help me girls - Ive lost ALL my motivation :(

AND I have been so bad at eating and buying whatever that I have got myself in debt on my credit card of $70! WTF?! Im so angry with myself.

HELP!

14th July - Still sick

This is just not cool, I need to get better FAST.

13th July - 6 weeks to go

So 6 weeks today I'll be on my way there - its coming around so fast!

After the terrible weekend I jumped on the scales today - and I have put on 600gms since Friday! Yes 600! I was 84.5 - that doesnt really help me to get to my goal does it!

So just trying to decide now weither to make my goal the 70's or 78 for when I go to Brisbane. I have 6 weeks hmm, I want to get to my target because I REALLY want a Wii, but then I dont want to make it to easy - hmm what do you think?

Duffy is so cute at the moment, shes just so beautiful! She was really concerned about us yesterday it was so sweet!

Other netball semi is on tonight but its on at 9pm which sux, especially when your sick. Hmm not sure what to do there.

So thats the go Im back up to 84.5 and feeling crap, absolut crap and cant see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Ps/ Im going home now from work, need to put my head down its so sore.

12th July - Still sick

Spent pretty much all day today either in bed or on the couch - feeling like abosolut crap. I watched the netball today and even that was crap.

Havent been eating that well because Ive just been eating what I feel like really which isnt good!

Im so guttered about Starlight Express, I keep thinking of the positives though - we sold the tickets for $80 so there is now $80 more in my savings and it wasnt MammaMia - now hold would I feel if I couldnt go to MammaMia - actually I dont want to think about it!

11th July - Guttered

Absolutly guttered we are both sick and have to sell our tickets for tonight for Starlight Express - nothing else to say Im guttered.

10th July - *Update* Comparrasion Shots

Can you tell which is which?

10th July - Weigh in day!

Well Im a bit lucky then arent I! I dont really feel like I have lost, but I must have because clothes are definately loser than last week, even though I havent lost my 900gms target - Im still on track for my "main goal" of getting into the 70's for Australia.

I have also decided that if I do real my goal - I am going to buy a Wii over there. They are cheaper than here so that is definately a good target. Im just deciding weither I should make my goal just the 70's or make it 78 like I originally hoped for. If I did make that my goal then I would have to lose just under a kilo every week for the next 6 weeks. Hmm ideas?

Im feeling pretty crappy today though, even though I lost. Ive got a sore throat and a sore head and just feel blah. I really hope I get better by tomorrow because were going to Starlight Express and I am SO excited about that!

Im thinking of changing my weigh in day to a Monday, just because I leave for Aussie on a Monday - again ideas there too? What day is "best" to weigh in?

Weightloss chart updated:

12th June - 90kgs

19th June - 87.8kgs - Loss 2.2kgs - Total loss 2.2kgs

26th June - 86.3kgs - Loss 1.5kgs - Total loss 3.7kgs
3rd July - 84.6kgs - Loss 1.7kgs - Total loss 5.4kgs

10th July - 83.9kgs - Loss .700gms - Total loss 6.10kgs

23rd July - *Update* Photo time

Taken today week 4 - muffin top!

Taken today, I havent worn these jeans in AGES!

Taken today

Last week - Week 3

Last week - week 3

Last week - week 3