Dresses

I LOVE dresses now that I have lost weight - but I don't like to wear them at the moment - but I will again in a few weeks!

I just loved the way I felt when I was feeling great and wearing them, I felt girly and I felt pretty.

I want that again!

I want to feel great again, so I need to stay on track - today has been BAD, like really bad. But thats ok because I'm going to get back on track tomorrow I know I am. I have my friend Andy who is on the same weightloss wagon to help me get back on the track!

I brought this dress in the weekend, my bestie told me it looked nice - I am not convinced! I think I still see my body as if it was 90+kgs!

What an awesome day!

I had a wicked day today, got my hair done by the lovely Caro, stayed on track eating wise - that was until I got to Dean's Aunties for my birthday tea, tea was healthy but dessert! OMG.

It was called "The Works" and it was exactly like Cold Rock - omg cold rock is my FAVOURITE thankfully we dont get it in New Zealand so thats one good thing for my body haha. It is icecream with lollies and crunchies smashed into it - it was devine, still dreaming about it!

I got some lovely gifts for my birthday - and it's not even my birthday yet! Dean's Aunty got me a bag that I had my eye on ages ago and a funky wee torch and these family conversation starters they are wicked I LOVE it! Also Dean's Dad gave me a $50 Lush voucher - I LOVE lush, can't wait to use that!

I am so sored today - that BAT class must have been good because my goodness I'm sore! OUCH! Nothing beats sore muscles though - means you have worked hard ha-ha.

Need to pull finger tomorrow though that dessert would have been BAD!

Friday - yeeeha!

So I went to the gym this morning for a BAT class at 6.05am, it was a little struggle to get up but I knew that Lisa & Sonya would be there waiting for me - well that was until Lisa text me and said she wasn't going. I was already dressed and thought well I may as well still go! So I did.

Holy hell what a class - hurt like anything! But it was great! Loved it - and PLAN to go again.

Remember the saying no one plains to fail, they fail to plain - SO in saying that I PLAN on going next Tuesday morning! The thing I like about it too is that its done for today, so tonight is all mine which is perfect for a Friday night!

I jumped on the scales today, they have moved from the weekend because on the weekend I was 76.2 but the just haven't moved in the last few days, serves me right for getting on them today though - but thats ok because by the time Monday weigh in comes I would have lost at least a kilo - thats my mission!

How are you going Andy?

What are you going to do to make today good?

I'm back and ready - Bring on Christmas!

So after having a good talk with a friend and my cousin and both feeling miserable about our weight again I thought right time to get organised and sorted summer time isn't far away at all so time to get that bikini body ready!

When I got on the scales and saw how much I have put on in the last 4 months I was disgusted in myself. But no point dwelling on the past, I need remember though how I felt when I saw those numbers flash up - 6kgs heavier than what I was a short time ago so that I don't go back to that!

I was feeling so fantastic and I WILL feel fantastic again.

First goal is to be 69.9 by Show weekend - that is a push but I like a challenge! My reward is a facial and a pedicure and man do I want a pedicure so I'm not aloud to get one until then - so I need to hurry up!

Day 2 now and feeling good!

I'm ready for this - are you?

23rd October - Ex Boyfriends!

First photo of Dean and I together as a couple
Check out his bruise from "the fight"!

OMG!

Yes it did happen, I bumped into my ex - again.

Ok brief background for those that dont know, I was with Dennis for nearly 3 years and I was 18 when I broke up with him. I didnt break up with him for Dean but I broke up with him because of Dean. Dean showed me that I deserved better and that there was people out there that thought I was great and would love to love me etc - me not realising he was actually talking about himself!

Ok ok back to the story its not about Dean and I - its about Dennis and I (ugh).

So things were pretty intense with Dennis and I, we were young and very serious. Moved intogether at 17. One problem though - my friends didnt like him - they did at the start but at the end they didnt at all. He was controlling and wouldnt let me have my own life outside of him - at all. My family didnt like how I became a shell of my former self. My work mates didnt like him at all either. Again they started off liking him but didnt like it when he became SO
possessive etc. The final straw came one night when he held me REALLY tight and said that he knows why people in America kill their partners because they are so jealous.....yeah enough said pretty scary eh.

So I broke up with him, didnt cry ANY tears - but he did. Man did he cry. He said everything under the sun to try and make me come back. Everything. Asked me to marry him everything. I stood my ground but decided to give him one last chance. I agreed to go out to dinner with his Mum, Dad and him and to stay the night. I THINK we arranged to go the Saturday night - and so on the Friday I went out for after work drinks with everyone - my first time ever after working there for 2 years. So got home about 7.30pm to find REALLY abusive messages on the phone from him asking where the hell I was etc - I rang him and said that that was the final straw, and that was it all over red rover. (Hopefully the dinner was suppose to be the Saturday night which Im sure it was - otherwise that was bad of me to be home late if everyone was waiting for me to go out for dinner - but Im sure it was the Saturday positive I hope).

Man this is turning out to be long, but I want the whole story done.

So after that, he followed me to work, tried to run me off the road, turned up at work on my lunch breaks all the time (we worked around the corner from each other), waited for me outside work, and then started waiting for me INSIDE work - until one of the big guys there went up to him when I was at lunch and said some words to him - not sure what they were but he never came back lol.

Few weeks later I was on a date with Dean and we were at a club late leaving to go home (I wasnt going home with him just sharing a cab), Dennis saw us and bam it was all on, big fight - Dennis got Dean - but only cause Dean was SO drunk! Haha. So yeah not nice.

Fast forward 7 years - 2 months ago a car pulled out in front of me - yep it was him. He waved - me scared. Fast forward to a month ago - walked into the chemist he walked out - bump - literally. Looked up and it was him. Shit. BUT I have to be fair, he was really nice really really nice - and even apologised for everything! He also told me he developed a condition after we broke up that he couldnt go outside - it lasted 2 years! But it was nice to see him and he even gave me a hug! Anyway few weeks later I saw his Mum and Nanna down the main street was also nice to see them and I told them it was nice to see Dennis a few weeks ago and they said he said the same thing.

Since then Jaz has also bumped into him and so has my brother.

Ok so that brings us to last night - yes I bumped into him AGAIN. How can it be that you dont see someone for 7 years and them bump into them 3 times in a couple of months! Anyway he had a girl with him (kind of looked like me)?! We walked out of the shop and he was across from us - then he kept on walking - yep he snobbed me! Hahaha.

So there goes a long post for you - thats if your still reading!

Netball last night was great, we lost and I was SO buggered bit sore today!

Eating went REALLY well yesterday Im really proud of myself!

22nd October - So tired!

The lamp I want to buy - I think!

I had the WORST nights sleep ever last night, kept waking up all night after I finally managed to go to sleep! Im thinking its because we had nachoes for tea? I know so bad, but they were nice! And I used the rest of the mince to make a mince vegie pasta bake for Dean for tea tonight since Ive got netball.

Duffy was so cute last night, slept in between us under the covers with her head on the pillow! WTF is she a human or what?!

But I really do think that is why I had a terrible nights sleep - that bad food!

Didnt do ANY exercise at all yesterday, so I better hurry up and do some to fit in my goal eh!

Loving that I now have readers and that I have people to read as well! Its awesome, will totally help me stay on track!

Feeling bit sick this morning - wonder if its from the nachoes?! Silly nachoes!

I really cant be bothered going to netball tonight - how bad is that?! I LOVE netball! Im just feeling a bit blah - this is when I really need to dig deep and keep going and start to feel good again rather than go the wrong way and end up feeling worse!

Im thinking about buying this lamp - what do you think of it? Its $200 plus postage.

21st November - Hump day!

So quick question for you all before I go on to do my proper page for today - Do you think its best if I write in the following day what happened the day before? So today write Tuesdays blog, or today (Wednesday) write about yesterday and this morning type thing?

Am I making sense?